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A search of my Ask history will reveal that I have been struggling with depression for my whole life. It has been severe for the last decade despite therapy, psychiatric drugs and even ketamine. I think that it perhaps is due to incomplete diagnosis. Details withinI have had lifelong OCD and depression. Over the last few years I have had constant obsessive thoughts. My brain is never at peace and I cannot relax. I started meds again with a new fancy NYC psychiatrist. Serotonin treatments have never helped, despite being the recommendation for OCD. I have thought that I might have ADHD too. I stumbled across this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fu0mN68rkEs&t=1s This is very interesting because Adderall is one of the very few things that ever made me feel better. I told my Dr this, but stated that it felt like a recreational drug high when I was on it. I was almost euphoric. I chalked this up to it being an amphetamine. It also came up as increased risk on my Genomind test due to 2D6 being the primary metabolizing enzyme. He rx'd me Intuniv on top of the Prestiq that I have been taking for over a year. After watching Dr Parker's video, I called him for a phone consult. He thinks that I should try Adderall, but just smaller doses throughout the day instead of the big 20MG once or twice a day.....that I may tolerate it better. Has anyone here had dopamine AND serotonin problems together. ADHD and OCD? The other weird thing is that numerous docs are recommending to take 5htp with the Pristiq I am on and the Luvox that I am getting off. I thought that you were never supposed to do this due to Serotonin Syndrome risk, but two psychiatrists have recommended it. I have to admit to being a little bit nervous about taking Adderall multiple times daily due to it being an amphetamine. Eating is one thing that I enjoy about life. This is huge when you are depressed. I am not looking forward to the appetite killing quality of this med. I am currently on Latuda, Pristiq and Intuniv .... getting off of Luvox

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I'm an MD who would like to get involved in doing some chart auditing, whether for legal reasons, utilization management or any other type of professional review. Has anyone here been involved in this, and if so what advice or direction could you provide me with?

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We're buying a house soon, and are tempted by the idea of an ethical bank. It's more than double the cost though - would that money be better spent (as in, be more useful to the world) donated somewhere else instead?We'll be taking out a loan for about SEK 750,000 (US$75,000). We like the idea of the biggest purchase of our lives being done in an ethical way. There is a bank called EkoBank that scores 99% on 'ethical banking ratings', and is generally excellent. Then there is a standard bank, which can offer a 60% better interest rate. The difference per month is about SEK 700 (US$70) (converting these to USD makes them seem such small numbers, but we live in the countryside and it is a non-insignificant sum for us). So! We do want to do something good. The question is, how much 'good' to we get for supporting an ethical bank compared to how much 'good' we could get for going with a standard bank and donating the savings to... something else that's doing good things in the world. (I'm not particularly utilitarian and this doesn't need to be The Greatest Good for The Greatest Number, and I know that either way is better than spending the money on a second car, but I would like to use this money well). So: better to support an ethical bank, or is that money better donated to a charity?

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Justin Kirkland interviews Billy Porter for Esquire: Three decades after Billy Porter's career began, the people who once brushed him off for auditions are doing double takes. He's caught the attention of fashion gurus with bold and stylish moments on the red carpet. And now that people are listening, he has a few things he'd like to share: memories of breaking free from abuse and his own doubt. Words about respect and acceptance. But most of all, what he's sharing makes one thing clear—Billy Porter didn't evolve into this phenomenon. It took thirty years for the world to catch up.

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I owe back taxes, have some credit card debt, and need to learn how to budget. I know about all the favored budgeting books and apps, but I have a really, really hard time understanding them. I would love to have a professional money-dealer-wither-person tell me what to do. But I'm only recently solvent--was low-income up until a year ago--and can't afford a fancy accountant. Does the kind of professional I'm looking for exist, and how do I find one? More details under the cut.I need to un-bleep: 1. My taxes -- I kinda sorta didn't pay my taxes for a couple years, then filed late and started a payment plan, then didn't pay quarterly taxes for freelance income, and am now looking at a big tax bill. I know the IRS will work with me. I need help figuring out quarterly estimated taxes stuff. 2. My credit card debt -- under $10k on a high-APR card, considering transferring balance or getting a low-interest personal loan through my credit union, need help understanding both 3. My budget -- I suck at it. Am for the first time in my adult life making a reasonable living where I actually have enough income to budget. So now I'd like to figure that out. For the first two, I would really really love it if a person who knows what they're talking about could just sit down with me, look everything over, and straight up tell me what to do. Like, "pay this much now; set up a payment plan for this; transfer this balance here; evertything will be paid off by X." For the third point, I understand nobody can magically make me better. I'll work on it. But right now it feels like I just can't get my head above water long enough to make sense of...anything. I think it would help to have a plan with concrete goals and dates, and I need somebody who "gets it" to help me make that plan. What's the name for the kind of money pro I need? How much do they cost? (I can probably spend a few hundred dollars, but not a thousand). Bonus if you know of one in the Portland area. Thank you!

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So my wife has a computer running Windows7 that her tech-savvy brother set up for her to do various important things like keep documents for small business accounting, etc.. and I pointed out that maybe we should upgrade it to Win10. To that suggestion, my bro-in-law shrugged and said something like "why are you worried? you think you're going to get hacked? you can get hacked in Win10, too."What are some "concrete" examples of what could go wrong using Win7 beyond its planned end of support from Microsoft? Won't Microsoft just extend support for really major things, like it has with XP, anyway? And if we don't use the web to surf to "bad places" -- shouldn't the computer be "fine"? Explain it to a 55yo...

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"Truth Be Told is an advice show made by and for people of color. It's like the friend you call after a long, exhausting day – the one who will laugh, cry, bitch and moan with you. The one who gets it." It's an Advice podcast by Tonya Mosley, produced and hosted by KQED (an NPR/PBS broadcaster) Podcasts in San Francisco, California, supported by the California Wellness Foundation, the East Bay Community Foundation, and Berkeley Repertory Theater. (Note: I know Marvin K. White, the man who does a short sermon about Woke and Eve at the beginning of Episode 4 of Truth Be Told, whom I found out about Truth Be Told from. We know each other through a fellowship we both did in 2016-2017 on Equity in the Arts, with Yerba Buena Center for the Arts, and we're friends. Also my family, from time to time, subscribes to Berkeley Repertory Theater.) Topics and language are not always safe for work. In the spirit of hearing and honoring and listening to marginalized people, and in honor of pride month, I hope this podcast gives you new and interesting information and context about the culture and experiences we share. Podcasts started in May, and are released weekly. Topics so far: - Joy (and sexuality) - Colonized Desire (and preference versus bias in dating) - Enough (and accents and code switching, and a discussion of "POC") - Well-Meaning White Folks - Motherhood (including the assumption that all women of color are mothers/will mother us) Many/most of the guests are women of color. There are Latinx, Asian, and Black guests. Queerness is well represented. And young and old. Unsure yet on other axes of marginalization. For me, the podcast has been hilarious and engaging and interesting and nourishing and community-building.

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What would be a good first Tower Defense game for kids? Not too frustrating or complicated - maybe with variable difficulty levels? Or just something on the easier side?

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I'm going to doctor the name and picture on my work ID card with something interesting / funny / off-kilter. Ideas?Just so if someone happens to glance at it over lunch or whenever they do a little double-take, or perhaps start up a conversation. Subtle or immediate s'ok. Nothing obviously gross or rude. So far I've got things like Zardoz, Horatio Hornblower (MCA) and All-star Supergrunt. If not an actual character, perhaps a theme I can run with? Long game also welcome! Any ideas?

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A recent trip to Italy and Spain sparked an interest in foods that must be produced in specific methods and regions of the world in order to be labelled as the particular item. Examples of such foods would be Champagne, Aceto Balsamico di Modena, Prosciutto di Parma, Iberico Ham and Tequila......Can anyone recommend a book that might encompass all or many of the foods that have very specific production regulations to be what they are?

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Jessica Cantarelli's husband's family owns an independent pizzeria in Chicago. She explains the costs that go into a basic 15-inch cheese pizza, including the $0.30 for the box.

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Earlier today, I was teaching some vocabulary to a few Arabic-speaking students, and they cracked up incredulously over the word "unique." Can someone please let me know why it's funny? I'm so curious! I'm pretty sure they speak the Levant dialect, if that factors in.

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"Millions of other people watch all this as well. It's true that the broader Fox project was always to make those viewers—Trump, your septuagenarian relatives, and everyone else feeling as though the elite liberal cultural complex has quietly been robbing them blind through much of their adult lives—receptive to conservative politics. But the actual election to the presidency of a Fox News addict whose understanding of politics is shaped wholly by the television he watches and his own legacy grievances and biases presents a different suite of challenges. Trump's towering incuriosity and impatience with other people have ensured that, despite having a massive intelligence-and-policy apparatus at his command, he continues to get most of his information from his television." The Man Who Was Upset (New Republic)

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Megavalanche 2018 SLYT that is all

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Boston Dynamics: New Robots Now Fight Back It's just a joke video from Corridor Digital. For now.

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Looking for recommendations for websites, search terms, etc for recipes for an entire dinner, including side(s).I currently use and love Cook Smarts meal planning service for a majority of my cooking, but I'd love to branch out more from them. One of the things I love the most is that each recipe gives you the whole meal, including sides. I want quick solutions that don't require me putting this delicious chicken recipe with that delicious cauliflower recipe to make a delicious dinner. What are your favorite resources for tasty recipes that do all of that for you?

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GQ and How Not to Talk About Men's Bodies "It's no secret that the media reinforces our beliefs about our own bodies and other people's bodies, and that it's much worse for women and nonbinary people than men; our sister site Jezebel has been grappling with this for at least a decade, and is still grappling with it. As Atlantic writer Amanda Mull pointed out yesterday, however, men's media is so far behind (with a few exceptions) that it doesn't even know it has a problem." Paul Blest From the Rock personally devastating cod stocks to the article in question, "there's got to be a better way to both gas up your buddy and offer advice to your readers on how to eat and exercise without glorifying malnourishment and exercise to the point of overexertion."

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I'm looking for meals I can prep quickly and easily (and perhaps interruptedly), leave to cook, and then come back in an hour or so and have a full meal ready. A good example is a roast chicken: rub with salt, pop in oven with some chopped veggies, and have a full meal ready in an hour and a half, plus leftovers for a full meal the following day.NB: I don't have a crock pot or rice cooker and don't want to buy any new equipment at this time. Bonus points for recipes that are dairy/soy/egg free (fish and chicken okay). Actual recipes appreciated. Thank you!

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"There's a modern (or at least louder in modern era) tendency in both fiction and the interpretation of fiction that every narrative be some sort of very specific kind of hyper-literal puzzle box that can be 'solved' by wikis and lore and clues" is near the start of a 2017 Twitter thread by Scott Benson. "After we released our game I was really blown away by how large the hunger for really concrete literal explanations were for things that were by design shadowy and vague and open to interpretation. But like, not in the sense of 'hey I'm curious', but 'hey, you left this out, when are you going to finish it or write the backstory lore etc'" A related discussion started by Brandon Rhea (2017): "people relate to their fandom by knowing everything. And the more they know, whether it's what this character did or how this engine from a comic 30 years ago works, the [more] real those things are to them" "Our Reaction to 'Cat Person' Shows That We Are Failing as Readers" by Larissa Pham, 2017 When we treat a short story like a personal essay, we end up, like Margot, projecting our own ideals onto the characters. Instead of viewing fiction as an opportunity to enrich our view of the world, or as a way to explore emotional and philosophical themes — in the way that a painting, for example, explores color — we're asking it for lessons on how to live. When we cannot even understand that a short story is fiction, and that a writer has carefully chosen how to construct her world, with its own architecture and a universe separate from our own, we flatten it completely, and we also flatten our own ability to think critically. An articulation of the values of affirmational fandom (in contrast to transformational fandom) by obsession_inc in 2009: "the source material is re-stated, the author's purpose divined to the community's satisfaction, rules established on how the characters are and how the universe works, and cosplay &etc. occur. It all tends to coalesce toward a center concept; it's all about nailing down the details." Joss Whedon's "Heart (Broken)" (3-minute song; YouTube notes include lyrics) from Commentary! The Musical, a variation of which is featured in in This American Life's 2009 episode "Return to the Scene of the Crime" (transcript): "It's broken by the endless loads / Of making ofs and mobisodes, / The tie-ins, prequels, games, and codes the audience buys. / The narrative dies"

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When you're in the mood for Kool-Aid, you can walk into a grocery store and chose from about 20 different flavor packets all priced at about a quarter a piece. However, if you're in the market for some quintessentially classic, high-grade, "Oh Yeah!"-era Kool-Aid (YouTube), you'll have to enter the fruit-flavored underbelly of one the most intriguing subsets in the world of pop culture food enthusiasts: the black market of vintage Kool-Aid packet collectors. Will Hodge writes for The Takeout, interviewing Matt of Dinosaur Dracula (previously), who is a fan of old and rare Kool-Aid flavors, going so far as to mix and drink really old Kool-Aid.

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You got stuck trying to get the chest. Find the way out. A puzzle/dungeon crawler for your Friday enjoyment.

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Deepfakes are troubling. But disinformation doesn't have to be high tech to be damaging. The deepfake is becoming more common. But the recent fake video of a "drunken" Pelosi was more of a cheapfake- and it was just as damaging. Numerous news organizations quickly debunked the video, but the damage to public trust was already done. Many will never know the video was a fake, but the advantages it gave to pundits will echo into the future. It's a recent example of what legal theorists Bobby Chesney and Danielle Citron call the liar's dividend. Those wishing to deny the truth can create disinformation to support their lie, while those caught behaving badly can write off the evidence of bad behavior as disinformation. Since facebook is refusing to take the video down, some people are fighting fire with fire. On Tuesday, Canny, an advertising company, posted a faked video of Mark Zuckerberg to Instagram. With the help of artists and a proprietary video dialogue replacement model, Canny produced a video of Zuckerberg talking about how he had amassed power and control through Spectre, a thinly guised pseudonym for Facebook and the name of the evil organization in the James Bond franchise. The A.I.-generated "deepfake" video implicitly but unmistakably calls for Facebook to make a public statement on its content moderation polices. The platform has long been criticized for permitting the spread of disinformation and harassment, but it became particularly acute recently, when the company said that it would not remove the "Drunk Pelosi" video.

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I baked something in a pan that had remnants of some sort of glue on it and the glue smoked a lot and gave off a noxious odor. Then the next time I used the oven, I again smelled the odor. Now I can't get rid of it. I ran the oven in self-cleaning mode for 10 total hours. During this time, the oven gave off a chemical odor, but I read this might be normal as the teflon interior outgasses. So, I tried going back to a normal temperature and odor persisted. I'm a sensitive flower when it comes to this sort of thing, but how can I possibly get rid of this? (It's especially confusing in that the gluey pan was only in the oven for 15 minutes at a baking temp, so I would have thought any "deposits" of the fumes would have been burned off in 10 hours under self-cleaning mode.)

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In the street photography book "Bystander" there is a passing reference to a ban on street/public photography in Paris in the 1800s, resulting in a relative gap of work between Nègre and Atget.. having difficulty finding more info about this law. Any insight?

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Every person on earth needs food every day. Every day, food is tended, harvested, transported, stored, and served up on our tables. In a very real sense, food cannot be separated from life itself. And so it has been said that changing the way we grow and eat food is one of the most powerful tools we have for changing our economies and society as a whole. So when we ask: what will the farms of the future look like? We should really be asking — what do we want the future to look like? And then answers may begin to emerge. Isabel Marlens writes about how small farms can heal our broken society. Also, small farms produce more food than statistics show.

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